I agree with Ygrec. You need to see a therapist and a psychiatrist. Make it a goal to at least make an appt with a counselor on campus - that would be a start. I know when youre depressed talking to anyone is difficult but youve got to start somewhere to heal yourself. Hiding in your room talking to no one when there is a chance by taking some action that you could feel better is not a good choice.

I recently went through a horrible depression. Im just now starting to climb out of it. After a year off of antidepressants because of the side effects (I developed something called tardive dyskenisia) I recently had to go back on because I couldnt stand the depression any more. Got tired of feeling so bad all the time, like I wanted to crawl into a hole and die.

So please be good to yourself, try really hard and muster up the courage to take the steps that you need to so that you will start to feel better. Good luck!