((((( canders ))))) its ok to want to BE HEARD...so many throw that whine word around it dimishes the word HEARD.....and to vent and talk and feel bad..You have a lot of reasons to feel bad....You really do I am sorry that you have all this on you. I will also say...yes it is possible to be so overwhelmed that you do not feel like things are real...you are like in a fog in a way..I have been there....Please make sure to see your doctors and pdoc or T or whatever you see to stay as well as possible