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hermeand · Dec 20, 2011, 01:10 PM

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Originally Posted by blossommayflower27

i really dont know what or why i am typing this i just feel like too much bad stuff is happening too fast and i am not able to control any of them...it is so noisy in my head and i cant get it to stop...i feel like i am a stranger in my own body and it doesnt help that i feel like a stranger in my own house...as though i am taking up space and someone elses air...i dunno what to do or say i can barely get out the words that need to be said...and i dunno how to talk sometimes...i feel like i am just moving from body to body noone is getting anything accomplished...i hate that i have to feel this out of control...also this time of year is not good for any one of our moods...whichever ones those happen to be...i try to make sense to people...but just cant...this pain i am feeling...is worse than physical pain...and i wanna get rid of it...i wanna just throw it out the window...feeling very unreal...and dont know what time or day it is anymore...just want to lay in bed and do nothing but cry...just wanna keep going away until so lost in the maze of which is my head...and drown out the noise within...i know i am rambling on and on...but this is really helping us a lot...not sure how or why...but it is...we have nothing to really do anyway...we want nothing to do...except for to work on our bad days and our days of feeling so young that we dont even know words...all she does is act like an infant who is learning how to walk...so paralyzed by our fear...not sure what else to say...so i will stop writing now...thank you for trying to make sense of this nonsensical rambling...i really do appreciate it!!!

Hi - this does not sound like a ramble, it makes perfect sense