Hello everyone I am new here and newly diagnosed to my illnes bp,manic depression,and ptsd. I am currently on Wellbutrin 300mg and lamictal 100mg,and tompomax 50mg, and sereqoel only for sleep 50mg, so heres my question:Okay I know this isn't the right thing to do but it's something I feel and it's what I feel and I was just wondering if anyone feels the same way. So here it goes whenever I am coming down off a manic episode and I am like I feel right now low and depressed and feel like my body is dead and numb, I feel like cutting because it gives me a rush that adrenaline rush that pushes me up a little to make me feel alive. Can anyone realte to this. I haven't been this down in a while but it's hitting me hard today and I am trying to keep myself preoccupied and not think about it. I can also cut without even thinking about it if I get that numb feeling I will just like go on automatic pilot and do it... I did Saturday and My husband was like what are u doing we talked about it "I don't remember the conversation" When I woke up the next morning I have these cuts on my thigh and it took me a minute and then I sort of remember doing it but I didn't bring it up with my husband out of shame and embarassment. Can anyone relate? I do see my Pdoc regularly and keep a diary card and she does know what I do and I am honest now, but anyway any suggestions or just feedback? Best to all

lynelle