Hi bluemountain - I am sure the difficult stuff will come out when it is ready to, I think sometimes it is enough of an achievement just to turn up at sessions, so be patient with yourself.

I am nearly 2 years into seeing my T and it has taken that long for me to build up any degree of trust. I still have daily difficulties but I think I may just be able to notice some improvement now - like I can still get floored really easily by things that happen to me, but I can pick myself up sooner than I could before and the overwhelming feelings pass more quickly.

I think over the years we build up our defences in response to negative events and those defences are what help us function in daily life - however in order to work through stuff with T we have to let the defences down and that can make us feel worse at least initially, as we are exposed without our familiar armour.

What I have learned is how ever awful I may be feeling, it does always pass and although in the past I have felt desperate to escape those feelings, now I am more able to sit with them and wait for them to calm again.

Soup