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Originally Posted by WePow
Now I have to go see my T today and
1) I don't want to tell him that I am trying to hypnotise myself into being emotionally distant from him.
2) I DON'T want to tell him about that horrid dream!!!!!
But I think the dream means that I am somehow afraid of being satisfied by what I do get from therapy.  |
Consciously, you want to be
less connected with T.
Subconsciously, you want to be
more connected with T.
Hence the internal conflict.
I was never DID, but in my attitude to T, I was almost three different people. My subconscious child wanted to get as close as possible. My subconscious teenager wanted to get as far as possible. And my conscious adult didn't know what to do.
This was the most horrible year of therapy. I couldn't bear it and had to stop. But I went back.
The child won, but oh, how the teenager fought!!!