Hi Everything Can Wait - I am sorry you are having such a hard time right now - however I think it is good that you have a reason not to SI at the moment. Those urges / feelings will pass and I wonder if there is something else you can do to distract yourself? Music, TV, walking, a bath? Just concentrating on your breathing and your body.

I see a T regularly to cope with my self destructive thoughts and I know for me pressure can make them worse. It does sound like you have significant pressures at the moment,
I am not sure whether you have talked to your mum or seen a doctor about how you are feeling? But maybe it would be helpful? You could then get a referral to another counsellor or therapist.

Let us know how you get on - Soup