I know how you feel dragonfly... I can't cry when I'm depressed. Or when I'm not.

When I'm depressed I mostly feel nothing at all. If I feel anything it's sadness (no tears) and / or guilt. If I move into psychosis I feel great fear of anything outside my apartment - everyone is looking at me, I damage people and so on.

I think sometimes our feelings shut down as a self-protective mechanism. The pain is so great that they just say 'nope, I'm not having this' and the walls go up.

I wish I had an answer for this. Just wanted to say that I absolutely understand you.