I've decided not to worry about this... it takes me forever to get hold of my treatment providers... I was waiting from April to November, and the day before my appointment I got a letter saying it had been cancelled, and I'd get a letter in due time. Still waiting. I'm going to try again tomorrow to give it another push.

You know, I've just realised, I'm forty, it could be hormonal. I'm not a young clever thing anymore, it's quite possible that this is just normal, and I shouldn't get so stressed about normal lapses. Once upon a time I was a very intelligent sharp young woman, now I'm a fat middle aged woman, still clever, but not a genius by any means. Maybe this is just normal for me now.