I'm afraid, tomorrow after work I have no official obligations, which could mean I could actually take care of myself. I know some people could say this is a good thing, but think of it this way, I already spent three years ago, in a MH days before Christmas, to, Christmas Eve. I don't want to spend the next few days in a MH, but I do know, I need help. I just don't want to go there, but after today, It's my best option. Today, I was within seconds of crashing. I'm afraid and I don't know what to do. Any thoughts??