I have found I have to choose what I read here. I am responsible for my actions and reactions to what I read and what I do with it. I have to maintain my sobriety 1st last and always regardless of anything that is going on around me.

I find that If I allow myself to get pulled into the lure of "if only" or "what if" I have to pick up the phone and call someone or immediately reach out to a power greater than myself, whatever that may be for the strength to move forward and away from what is calling me. Particularly alcohol or drugs.

Alcohol and drugs beat me nearly to death before I realized that they were more powerful than me. I am grateful today to be sober. Thanks for sharing your struggle and willingness to stay sober.