(((Brokenjewellery)))

I'm sorry that things have been so difficult for you. Long relationships affect so many aspects of our lives, it can be very hard to continue activities that remind us of the broken relationship.

I agree with Leed. Therapy could be very helpful to you, especially if you felt comfortable enough to talk about deep emotions and thoughts with the T. I highly recommend looking into T, to help you work through your depression. You may want to start by mentioning the depression to your doctor ~ who could prescribe an anti-depressant and refer you to a few T's that s/he's had success with before.

Gentle hugs sent your way ~ best wishes to you!