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Venus said:
I for myself don't consider my issues "illness". Obstacle? Sure. Is it dangerous at times? Hell yeah. But I see positives to it. And it is who I am.... maybe my spontageity is partly driven by manias, maybe my creative insights is driven by both depressed and manic phases... who knows. But if it is so... why would I want a "cure"? Sure there are times when I am asking deities to please just give me time to breathe... but retrospectivelly it often makes sense.
I have always excited healers and shamans. I believe I am giften in this way too, just learning to work with it.... not to get overwhelmed by all the energies and visions and whatnot. It can get intense.... but it seems to gotten better with time. I still wanna live in the world and be part of it.
Maybe we all are different for reason.... it's just about finding out place in the world. I wish more people were understanding of this. Or maybe (and I plead guilty on this account) if we all weren't creating some artificial and shared "normal" and were more ourselves.... we could breathe freer.
Hi Venus,
Since I was raised in a home of undiagnosed bipolars, it is sortof normal for me. My parents encouraged my creativity. But of course at times we all walked on egg shells so as to not set dad off into a bad mood. I didnt know that most families were more "stable". I still dont know and no desire to compare how enriched or bland others' lives may be.
Now that i know we have this "thing" bipolar.... I view it as a thing like part of my personality, not a disease or an illness, my choice to view it as such. Yes, it really can be dangerous when we get depressed or manic, I know all too well from tragedies in my family.
I think that the mood swings and extremes can be explained by brain chemistry. But I also believe that we are more sensitive to energies and to the unseen. I began working with meditation and energy work in my 20's, to help me deal with my anxiety about the energies i could feel, visions, etc. Still baby steps and a work in progress.
But yes, i believe we could be here for a reason, for times of change. And our paths are all very different and i dont expect any to be very easy. For me the biggest challenge is keeping a schedule cuz i will throw myself off balance when i don't sleep regularaly. My mind is on superbuzz right now, but i know my physical body needs to sleep or i'll get myself sick, won't make it to work etc. I did take the sleeping pill tonight (5 - 6 hrs ago) cuz I could feel the insomnia coming on... but it hasnt worked yet ughh. i will try meditation and see if i can relax and get some sleep, there's still a few hours until dawn.
Thanks for the topic, please post more. I find it very interesting.
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