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I have blackouts but I've had a lot of time erased from my memory as a child and it is still happening now. It's only scary for me because I know that during those blackouts some really serious things happened and when I begin to remember pieces it scares the heck out of me. But in general, the thought of losing memories from that time period are sad but not that scary. You were a child, it's very common for you to forget things like that. I can remember my Grandma always saying she couldn't remember when I would ask her things about when she was in her 20s and 30s. It's just what happens with time, our minds don't hold too much. But when it becomes an amnesia it does make things more scary.
I just always remember what they are. They are just memories. If I uncovered every moment from the day I was born until now that I have lost, what good would it do? It was lost for a reason and while I know I will have to uncover some memories to heal, I don't worry over it. Memories only have as much control as you give them in your life. They are only memories and can not hurt you unless you let them so there's no point in worrying over them when all they are is history.
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I'd lock my hands behind my head, I'd cover my heart and hit the deck, I'd brace myself for the impact if I were you.
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