I don't know if I'm paranoid and delusional, but I'm so confused. I invited my sisters over here because I bought the xbox kinect and thought it would be fun for everyone to play (I really don't want to go over there where I will feel like they are ganging up on me or looking down on me). So they are supposed to come and bring Gabe home after his nap. I am going to try really hard to be a better person even though, neither me nor my husband think I should be blaming myself for the boy's issues. We will see how he acts. And rather than putting my defenses up, I'm going to try to listen to critizism and not keep things in. I know my sister is on my side. She of all people knows what the mind can do to you. See all this doesn't even make sense. I am typing but none of you can probably comprehend what I am trying to say. My medicine is not working, but I can't make myself go back to a doctor. That's a whole nother issue.