She said she couldn't work with somebody who didn't feel safe with the therapy she gave. I've been doing EMDR with her, and it has left me in complete shambles. I told her I couldn't continue it on an outpatient basis and she told me she couldn't force me. So we terminated.

I've been with her only since September, so I wasn't really attached to her or anything. I have a team to keep me accountable. It was just as soon as I walked in there all my alters wanted to talk at once. Because she didn't judge the d/o like every other treatment provider I have does. It landed in me being very sick, all the time. All of us being very sick.

I don't really feel anything about it. I know I'm going to get a lot of crap for this from my team, but honestly I did what was best for my entire system. I offered to do the therapy in a trauma unit, so I was safe at first (it gets worse before it gets better). They denied the offer.

She let me out early to write a termination letter to them. It would be a mistake for her to tell them I didn't want therapy. I do want therapy. It's me ending up dead that I do not want.