My life just isn't going well right now. All I want to do is scream and cry and punch something.

I was doing pretty well and feeling pretty stable and then I went off Zyprexa. My pdoc added Abilify in place of the Zyprexa after I said I wasn't doing too hot. It's been a couple of weeks and I don't think that Abilify is doing it's job so maybe I should up the dose (obviously talking to my pdoc about it -- I see her next week).

But this week has been especially bad. I feel like I'm just so over so many things...being at home, work, taking meds, Christmas etc. Pretty much the only positive right now is that I'm going back to school in a month (I grudgingly took this semester off).

On the taking meds front, I've been bad. The last 2 nights I haven't taken them. It just makes me so mad that I have to be dependent on some stupid chemicals to function like a normal person!

I don't know...I just really needed to vent.