Sorry to hear you're going through this. I think you should be proud of yourself. You have made a decision that is in your best interest-you are willing to do the work and take the hard times that come with it-but you need a stronger "container" in which to be held. That sounds completely reasonable to me.

I'm glad this is happening now and not a year or more from now when the attachment issues may be stronger.

I've gone through the EMDR bit and I found it to be messy too when I didn't have the support I need.

I'm looking forward to the time when you find the right person to help you through this. Congratulations to you for recognizing what you need and standing up for yourself!