Oh, do I know where you're coming from. I've been struggling with taking my meds as well. Let yourself scream and cry and punch things. Let it out into a pillow, find some poignant music and sing at the top of your lungs (that one's working for me lately) - you've got to let it out somehow, but in a safe fashion.

Between the northern winters and the holidays, many of us are feeling pretty crappy this time of year. You are not alone. Release the energy and emotions and try to regroup to get through Christmas. Focus on going back to school after Christmas is over. Only 4 more days to go and then Christmas will be done. You can get through this.