I have periods of time when I get worse, and others when I get a little better. It is certainly a rollercoaster ride.

My t has told me that she doesn't expect me to follow a line straight from depression to happiness, but that there will be bumps and detours in that road.

I really hope that your t can help you through your "bumps and detours" and that you can allow yourself to know their will be those bumps (yeah, I'm a hypocrite about this - I have a hard time as well).