Ipod1, I'm sorry you're feeling so bad.
I think if your mood and thoughts change profoundly, it can be very scary and we might feel sometimes as if we are a different person - and usually not a person we want to be! Yes, I've had scary thoughts and emotions can become very overwhelming when they become dark and one-sided.
I wouldn't be able to say for sure whether you have or don't have schizophrenia, especially because I don't know very much about what thoughts and emotions you have.
However, I can relate as I've mentioned above and I don't have schizophrenia.
Keep describing your symptoms to your doctor and therapist.
I don't know whether this helps, but I feel maybe it feels at least a little bit better when you know you're not all alone in this!
Post as much as you like and I do hope that you and your doctor / therapist will come up with a way forward very soon.
Hugs from Shadow-world
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