Craving car crashes?>

Now I will admit- even before this recent crash I had in October, I have had really bad thoughts with car crashes, but not craving them i don't think-- just thoughts of the sort of someone slamming into me while driving home, or driving to work

Now I must admit it is more of a fear for me of car crashes---

But craving car crashes-- can't say i crave them knowingly, but the thought of them yes.