Thing is I am thinking of it nearly all the time, to the point I just want it to happen to me. I'm not old enough to drive a car yet and I don't want to be the cause of it, so either way it isn't going to happen unless by accident from another driver. I almost get a little upset when I go through a journey without being in a crash. I should be thankful that I wasn't in one, but I just want one so much.