Thank you Shezbut and Gulas--
Shezbut

I have tried Boundaries this last years with him-- but I still get wrapped up with emotions with him, it is hard. I am hoping in time this gets better and that with what ever comes that i keep my boundries.

Luckily my boyfriend is one helpful factor in that- No one is allowed to stay with us, he wont allowed and could not handle it - (He has high anxiety with people so no good).

See I have had a lot going on this month (well few months) with me which adds to this all-- he asked if he could see me like 2 or 3 weeks ago-(sign of things going down hill again) I just texted him asking him how he was doing and sorry I had been sleeping a lot which I had been, I could not see him- I am sorry--- then all of the sudden when i am ready to see him, his phone is off-- which worries me.. But to be honest I need to let some of this go--

I have done what I can right now with contacting what little people I know may know where he is, and emailing him to his email accounts.

Thank you all-- I don't understand why logically I can play this out, but emotions have such a hold on me with him even though I can swing from that as well with him

I think it is a good idea to make a list like suggested



be well all-- hopefully in a few days he will pop up again or I will get a note from someone saying they have seen him--- He does this from time to time just disappearing - If a month or two goes by I will be going for a drive to see if he is there.