To answer your question no I don't think they're being placed there by someone else. Some of the thoughts I've had the past hour. I stop at the pool hall almost every day before I go to work because it's right down the street. While I was playing by myself I was thinking I better say goodbye to these guys right now before I "snap" and I'm not able to associate with them anymore. Then started to thing about doing the same with all my friends and my girlfriend and I are on a break until after the new year so I was thinking well what If I'm just completely gone by the time she comes back. This all is just getting the best of me. Idk what to do. I don't go back to the psychiatrist till the 30th and I'm just freaking out. I take my Xanax but that's not helping much. I'm not sure if it's just cause I'm so overwhelmed or not. I need to make a journal and take to him.