(((((Malyce))))) With my illness, at times I don't know how to respond to a post. But I want the poster to know that I am here, Psych Centeral is here, that I care, that others care, I understand, we understand, we welcome you here and glad that you are reaching out for help. To me any kind of responce is welcome. This tells me that I am not alone and that others understand me. You don't get understanding feelings in the real world. Unless you can find a depression group near you or on the net.

Like you it takes me a long time to write a post. You see I am not good at writing, spelling or getting my thoughts on paper. I just do my best.

I to have a long history of depression - 20 years or so. I don't think there is a day that goes by that I don't think of ending it all. I can say I do understand how you are feeling. Your so called rant is a good thing if this is what you needed.

New posters are just that new. We don't know them yet. Some of the younger people don't know why they are feeling the way they feel. We can not go to them we can only let them know we are here.

I haven't been back here for awhile as I could not help those who came here for help. In my mind understanding was no longer any good. I could understand but not get out there to help them, in person. That just added to my depression and I ended up in the hospital. I myself think that we who kind of understand depression should help those who don't understand it. The first time posters are all the same looking for understanding and bigger yet, how to make others around them understand. ( a problem that I have ) If only our perants, friends, and family could learn to understand.

For all who read my posts thank you. Please let me know that you read it, give me a hug, thanks or responce. I will feel more like writing if you do and I will do the same for you. Also don't forget to thank those who have replied to your posts as it will make people likely to respond again and more often to a post.