My T asked if I wanted to talk about the last session (the one where I went all weird and asked him to sit next to me and not look at me while I talked, and then ended up squished against him whispering). I said I didn't really, I just felt really stupid. He then suggested we just focus on me not feeling stupid and try just feeling sorrow for myself. He said I have lots of compassion for others and almost none for me. Really? Ya think? So, stopdog, he really offered me the option of continuing where we left off, but I NEEDED some breathing room.

I'm not sure about the reciprocity comment either. I think that's why I posted it -- to see what other people thought. I do adore him, and I'm sure there's something really nice about sitting across from someone who adores you, even if they're talking about crappy, horrible stuff. Maybe that's it? I try not to talk about liking him very often, except to express my discomfort with it.