what is wrong with your spouse or significant other that they stick around? I'm having a bad day thanks to lack of sleep this week and I keep thinking that my husband must view one of his exes as the one that got away. She's been a CEO, worked on Wall Street and now has a very successful consulting company. I'm bipolar and a librarian. I know I have other good--really, really good--qualities but still....I can't help but think my husband must think about her and view her as the one that got away. He says he doesn't--that I'm the only woman he wants and will ever want--but days like today that's pretty hard to believe. I don't ask for reassurance and keep this stuff to myself as much as possible. I guess when I'm dealing with the cycling and the mania and the mixed states I feel like a major thorn in this side and that he must feel like he made a mistake when he married me.

Why do I have thoughts like this even though he's told me time and time again that he loves me, doesn't want anyone else, never will want anyone else and that he's not going anywhere? Why does bipolar have to screw with my mind like this?