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Old Dec 21, 2011, 08:04 PM
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Originally Posted by Ipod1 View Post
Someone please help me or tell me you've been here and came through this. I literally feel nothing like my old self. Don't think the same, have the same emotions, don't feel the same, have crazy thoughts, random thoughts. I really think I've lost myself for good. I do have a psychiatrist and a t that I talk to. But I don't think they get it when I tell them all of this. They say it's anxiety OCD and depression but I've had all that since I was 16, now I'm 22 and I'm in the age range for schizophrenia and I was so scared of that for the past two months and now I feel like I'm there. Idk why but im just not normal anymore. I just want my life back. It's got to the point where I don't care what I have. I just want it to happen, get better or get worse so it can be treated as soon as possible. I'm so tired of all of this I can't deal with it much anymore. I feel like I'm just hanging on by a thread and I'm just gonna snap. I hope someone has felt this before. Help!
There are actually several different types of schizophrenia, each with it's own set of symptoms. You might want to check out some of the literature put out by the National Institutes of Health and check what you're feeling with their symptom lists. One thing to remember though is that if your perception of reality starts to change, you should definitely make said change very clear to your t and psychiatrist. A number of mental health issues can cause fairly rapid and universal changes in self-perception, thoughts, and feelings. If you can keep a mood journal and document symptoms and feelings from day to day, you could show that to your psychiatrist and t as evidence that they should take you seriously. I've had times where I felt like I was losing touch with my real self. I also struggle with fairly serious self-doubt and other self-perception issues in addition to my other mental health issues, so please don't feel that you have to go through this alone. Has anything happened in your life that might correlate with the onset of the symptoms you're describing?