I run myself into the ground with worry over "does my husband love me" " had he known I was Bipolar BEFORE we got married would he have run away very quickly" blah blah blah the list goes on.

My Husband tries to understand my Bipolar but he cant really understand why I get all flipped out and paranoid at times.

I have a HUGE fear that once I get a "lil stable" he will just end our marriage .. I have spoke to him about my fears numerous times , He assures me that he has no intention of doing that and he cant understand why I continue to to keep doubting .

It could have to do with my first husband cheating and leaving me or just that it seems alot of bipolar people have " abandonment issues" that is something my T and I are always working on.

If your husband reassures you that you are the one he wants to be with ,,then Try Try Try to believe in that.

I know from your posts lately you seem to be under a ridiculous amount of stress and then the added stress of the holidays ... (((hugs))))

Maybe you need a tweak in your meds or maybe an additional medication??