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I'm not sad now. I am doing better. Partly, it may be because I love this time of the year. I think, also, I have gotten to a higher level of understanding what it takes to have a better life. I really have to work hard and not neglect things. I need to respect that life only gives a so much time to accomplish things, and I need to get better at moving on from task to task. All my life, I have treated "TIME" as if I had access to an unlimited supply. I have to budget my time. That will be a real challenge for me!!! I have to face that there will be bad consequences, if I don't.
Today, I gave one task priority and am working at it. I need to hurry up, though. I keep lavishing attention on unimportant minutia. I think I have a mental disorder in that regard, like a form of obsessiveness/compulsiveness. Actually, that is a diagnosis I now have, thanks to an observant and attentive resident. I can't use it as an excuse. I have to manage it.
At the psych center, they ended up keeping me as a client, but switched me to a different clinic. That probably is for the best. I always have a hard time with "change." I tend to resent when things in my life get changed by others. Often, that is just me being stubborn and stupid.
I thank everyone above for their interest in encouraging me. It is much appreciated.
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