hi everyone and thanks for all of the suggestions and support. i have considered vocational retraining but haven't looked into it yet. i am still having such a huge problem just motivating myself for the simplest things.

there are other good suggestions here also and i have bookkmarked a few of the websites.

so thank you for all the support, and i'm sorry i haven't responded to this thread before this, truth is it is such a huge source of anxiety for me that i don't want to deal with it at all, but of course i can't not deal with it forever. my doc agrees that i am not ready to jump back into work yet but that i need to be making steps and plans in that direction.

i posted this to start being more proactive on it and then i just panicked... but i have been reading and i appreciate the support and the time taken to answer.

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-- Dave
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