After hurting an on-line friend (many months ago) and not being forgiven, despite being told so, I let go tonight. I have just deleted all emails, I have deleted every trace of her from my computer. I will never forget her, or the tangible things in my household that she sent me, but I had to let go. Her silence after forgiving was so loud.

Now I just need to stick to what I have done.

It still hurts so much. I told her so much. I don't want to have to regret it.