As the re-telling entered its 2nd installment today, more and more stuff is coming to the surface. It's probably not really a retelling. My T knows the outline of the story but not many of the details and how emotionally devastating it all was. I had forgotten myself how much I suffered. And now I'm feeling it. I couldn't fully feel it before.

I had decided after last session that I wouldn't continue. So, I asked T if there was really a value in the telling. I am willing to go through it again if there's a point. She said it's important to revisit it and maybe it can be reframed. Right now I have my own interpretation but with her help I might be able to see it in another light. I hope so.