I tried to have my session today and NOT talk about the past. Funny that I couldn't think of anything to talk about that amounted to anything. She asked me to re-evalaute my goals for therapy. I had no idea what to say! It all sounds so stupid to me. Like, "I want to learn to treat myself better. I want to improve upon my self-esteem. I want to learn to like myself." Sounds rather dumb, doesn't it?

What kind of work would we do to learn about that kind of stuff? Sometimes I think I am just trying to be someone that I am not and never will be. Right now (once again) I want to quit! Throw the towel in and say, "I surrender to who I am. "