Hi Lost&confused89. Sorry things are so difficult for you now. It will get get better for you. Keep tweaking the meds with you pdoc and continue with the therapy. I know what it's like to ride the bus or walk or rely on the kindness of others for rides. Relationships can be mended over time. See if you can arrange for child care a couple of times a week for an hour or two to give you time to decompress and do something for you. This forum should help you. Good luck!