before this time in my life i had only ever hurt myself three times at some of the lowest points in my life, now that im stuck in an abyss i started doing it again. its different this time though, when i do it its like this feeling of relief washes over me and im left feeling high. im hooked, its like this whole other level of high, i feel like i just release all that's bottled up inside. its just raw emotion and it feels so natural truth is i just cant stop now.