Completely understood. Sometimes I can't figure out whether I'm disgusted with myself or not. At times I look at the blood & scars, I feel that relief & it leaves me wanting more. Other times I look at myself & think what the hell am I doing to me. However, I just find myself resorting to SI more & more...especially this past week. SI is an addiction & as much as I may be in denial...I truly may just be addicted 8\

Take care & please try your best to stay safe, as will I. PM me anytime *hugs*