I never worry about the "one who got away" I can't even get that far out of my way. I just get "stuck in a loop" as my boyfriend calls it thinking that he's an idiot and he doesn't deserve my madness, he's too good for me etc.

I comes down to the fact that' I am insecure. I don't love myself enough so I don't except anyone else to either. It's not that there's something wrong with them, it's that there's something we can't see in ourselves.