I understand about having trouble making friends. If someone I know asks me to come to a party or to lunch I will go most of the time but I cannot do the same in return and I never invite people to my house. Those things cause all kinds of panic and anxiety. But oddly, if you just show up at my house I don't have a problem with that. And it doesn't matter if it is family or friends. Most people get offended at these things and so in the end I end up loosing the friend because I cannot reciprocate. Everyone thinks I like being alone when really I hate it and am very lonely.