Good for you!! I do not have the same challenges as you, but just wanted to reassure you that repressed memories are very real. When I was 18, during a meditation exercise we had to perform to strengthen the bond between classmates... These images came flooding into my brain, images of my older brother sneaking into my room at night... Images of me pretending to wake up, so he would make a run for it. I remember thinking "open your eyes, it will make him stop" and then that countered with "but he'll feel bad if he gets caught" i remember deliberately ruining my summer nightware, bcoz pajamas are like impossible to work around without waking your victim. I burst out CRYING infront of my entire class, and couldn't tell anybody what had just occurred in my brain. I pushed those thoughts aside, and rejoined my class. After that I questioned what else have forgotten (i've always had play by play memory) turns out I remember N0THING about 1994, the year i was 10... Only teacher I don't remember, don't remember who my school friends were that year, don't remember my birthday party of that year ( i can go into detail of each b.day from age 7 to 27, except that 1) anyway, didnt mean to ramble, but there's a year of my life, completely unaccounted for... To cut a long story short, i chose to forgive my brother, coz I didn't wanna tear my family apart, and I conciously decided not to try and remember the rest. You're the 1st person I've shared those details with, but I did it b.coz i think it's important you hear it. On a lighter note, I had NO recollection of my SIL (eldest brother's wife) joining us on our amazing holiday he treated me and my younger brother to LOL ( i have 3 brothers, hope that's clear in my post) anyway, b.coz eldest brother moved overseas shortly after that trip (I was 16 at the time) i had no photos. Years later after his brutal passing, I get his PC, and guess what I found OUR HOLIDAY PICS! But I could not for the life of me understand how SIL got into the shots! Little brother insists she was there, and i remember EVERYTHING we did on that trip, the restaurants, the caves we explored, the zoo, each hotel and b&b, but she's not in any of those memories. (btw if you hadn't guessed, SIL & I didn't get along)... I attempted therapy a few months ago, for my bipolar, but quit b.coz I don't want to dig up my past and remember things. Anyway, my apologies for this LONG response, I in no way meant to hijack your thread or derail it, just wanted you to know that I believe you, and no matter what your douchey pdoc thinks, he don't know jack! Hope you get the help you need. XOXO