Your T made a suggestion. If you do not want to/feel able to, then don't do it.
As for sharing the information, I tend to write it down and read it to her. It saves me from making eye contact and thinking about what she is thinking about what I am saying. Perhaps, you could write it down and just let the T read it. I never tried that because my first T had seeing problems due to diabetes. It might work for you since you choke every time you try to say it.