As you live life "alone," try to enjoy some of the positives. You have total decision making control of what you eat, what you watch, where you go, when you do chores, etc. Your expenses are usually less. You have freedom to flirt without any obligations.

Being able to trust again always takes time. If you cannot trust at this time, do not feel fear or shame for it. It is your body and mind protecting itself while you recover....and you will. With professional help, you will regain your trust probably sooner than you would without therapy, but it will return when you are mentally ready to. Meanwhile, do not force your mind to do anything. You will only be stressing yourself further.I have been hurting for 6 or more years...and many of the relationship fails in the past probably had something to do with the fact I tried to hard to get back in the game before I was ready to.

Get out once in a while to a social event even wihtout expectations....just to be out and communicating, it doesn't matter who with or what activity. Just be sure to be present in social settings now and then. Meanwhile, we will be happy to have fun in chat with you as we already do.