The reason that I started fearing it was because of how I started feeling seemingly overnight. At first I started thinking I was bipolar and when I figured out I wasn't I started obsessing over schizophrenia. I'm not sure how but I just started looking up how I felt and I couldn't really come up with anything so of course I imagined the worst. I began questioning every thought I had and have ever had every choice I made and everything. To answer your question none of the docs I've seen have came remotely close to saying that I am I always ask them if I'm developing it and they say no not at all. Some of my symptoms.
-songs get stuck in my head constantly, this started a couple months ago.
-I feel so disconnected. Not sure if it's depersonalization or what.
-I get such random thoughts al the time that don't really make since like I wouldn't say they're disorganized but definitely different.
-I'm almost emotionless. Not feeling happy when I should, or sad. Numb.
-I'm so depressed because of the way that I feel.
-strange delusion like thoughts. But I've always had these I just never really gave them the time of day. Also hard to explain. I don't think anyone is out to get me, I just question a lot about reality I guess. Which I read is common with OCD but why all of the sudden in the past few months.
-I feel as if I'm just going through the motions. Just doing what I think I'm supposed to be doing to try and feel normal again.
-completely disconnected from everything even when I go out and do things I used to I just kinda feel out of it.
-random images and thoughts in my head.
-it's so hard to explain all of this. I'm dealing with a lot of stressors in my life right now and I just feel like its broken me down and now I'll never be the same.
-I'm so fearful that I'll never be the same and all of these thought just race through my head all day.
I'm sure I'm forgetting some, this is just a few off the top of my head. I just feel like I lost myself completely.