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I'm very, very happy to hear that you're not yet old enough to drive, which would make it a lot more serious than it is at present. But don't delay, tell your folks if you have to, but however you do it get to see a therapist as soon as you can. It doesn't sound like the hardest thing in the world to deal with and any trained therapist can help you fix this problem. Take care!
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I keep making jokes with my parents about how I'd be a terrible driver and they just laugh along, and I don't think I'll be driving for a while. I have friends that are doing their driving tests and lessons and it seems rather costly, both in price and time. I'm hopefully going to get some help from the NHS soon, I am just waiting on some emails to come back and a few assessments to be completed.
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Please talk to someone about this. If you are still in school,and not on Holiday break, go see the counselor. Its improtant to share these feeling you are having. No, its not normal.......
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I've been off school for about a week, my counsellor told me on my last session with her that one of the senior members of staff at my school had told her not to come into school the day of my next session. She had told me the senior member of staff wanted the students to 'settle in' and when my counsellor asked me if I was okay with this, I had told her that it 'wasn't ideal' and my counsellor had said she'll try to come in. If she doesn't I won't be seeing her until the 11th of January. (Which will be a hard session to face after it will be two years since I picked up on the reason I have counselling.)
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Think about it deeper. Why do you want to be in an accident? Do you want others to feel bad for you? Do you want the pain? Do you want a story to tell or do you want it to be the end for you?
Either way this is unhealthy thinking and it would be best to bring this up with a therapist. These could be the beginning signs that you may become suicidal and we do NOT want that! Please care for yourself and resist the urge, it may seem tempting at the moment but I can vouch for the fact that it's one of the most horrifying things you can be a part of or witness in life.
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I'm not quite sure of what I want... The pain most likely. That may be correct, as I've had suicidal thoughts before, and although they have not been around as much recently the car crash thoughts have... maybe they are replacing them? I don't know. I'm sorry you've been in so many crashes.
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It's hard when you are a teen and fairly "trapped" between home and school! I would take on a project, do a lot of reading and see if you can figure out some of what interests you, where you have aptitudes or what you don't like but might need (math :-) how you get along with computers, etc. and see if you can't work toward something that interests you beyond the next 4-5 years? If you are going to go to college, what subject are you going to study, what do you want to work at, do you want to have a job during school and what would you do with that money (help pay for your education, live on your own with others, buy and support a car, travel) or do you want to study harder and finish early so you can do the next phase of your plan; do you understand money and how to make and use it effectively, etc. You aren't always going to be a teenager and I think finding something to get interested in and work on will get rid of the car crash interest and let you use that energy to get somewhere you would like better.
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I don't even know what I want to do in the future. Everytime I think about it I have this voice in the back of my head saying 'Don't you remember? You shouldn't be hear, your friends told you that you should be dead by now.' and it ends up with me thinking that maybe I shouldn't be here...
I'm technically in college already, I'm not sure if you mean university though? I'd like to study graphic design, but I never seem to fit enough time in to actually work towards that goal. My parents always badger me about getting a job but I have to work for my A Levels first.
I just can't seem to find interest in anything at the moment...
So in reply to all of those messages, I'll talk to someone about the car crash thoughts I think... I'm just worried that the person I tell may not understand or something...