Ok so things have been going well with the bf and I. Every so often I'll think about something he did and smile a little because it's exactly what I asked for.

But each time I do this I pull back.

Like yesterday I was having a health issue (nothing serious) and usually when it comes up, although I know he's concerned about me, his comment usually reflects how it affects him. But he called ME to check how I was doing, offer suggestions and sympathies. There wasn't one mention of the external factor. So that's great right?

But my reaction is to grab an invisibility cloak and flee the country. How do I stop being afraid that bad things always follow positive growth?

Just needed to get that out of my head. Maybe I can come back and realize I'm driving myself crazy for no reason