last night at my apartment, I got home, 2 baskets of clothes, my son and keys to get in in my hands. Just as I pull up this new comer is literaly parked where we walk moving in, as I walk in the knee deep mud around her I mention how we cant park on the grass here... So she starts trippin out on me. Telling me in more vulgar words she doesnt care. I told her id prefer her not to swear in front of my child and she gets up in my face saying shes going to beat my ***** in front of my child. Thats when I became manic. I unlocked my dooor, got my son inside and went for my second basket of clothes she got in my face again so I pushed her out of my way and grabbed my basket. Yes I realize I shouldnt have touched her, was manic though, and momhood kicked in, so I went irrational. I called the apt complex and they said to call the cops and I knew id have been in trouble so I didnt.

Anyways, later that night I wrote a note being the bigger person, even though im usually the bad one, and taped it to her door. Apology and all, and so today she sends me a letter on my door. NO apology, telling me how wrong I was and that she gets bein a mom cuz shes a god mom and such... Which im not touching how thats nothing like being a full time mom... Anyway, the point is how am I supposed to have respect for her, and not want to just blow up.

shee started a massive fight between me and my bf. And were on the verge of ending because I just want to scream, having suicidal thoughts, etc

What do I do??:'( :'(