Right. I would never insist that you feel happy about it. It sucks.

There is life beyond it though. Some days I even see it as a kind of reprieve from 'normalness', which seems to me overrated in the extreme. If someone is pushing me too hard to be normal (which doesn't happen so much anymore), I have an instant 'out'. Sorry. No can do.

But yeah. It's not like it's all roses and running along the beach. It always bugs me when people say their cancer was a 'gift'. I'm thinking, really? A gift? A nice bottle of perfume is a gift. Cancer sucks. Cancer is a serious and painful illness. And so is this, really. It's mostly painful and inconvenient.