Ygrec, does your T call this depression? I'm asking because when I am feeling sad or hopeless or I'm realizing the time lost (that if I had been in good therapy might have lead my life in another direction, or that the time to get what I needed - when I needed it the most - is gone forever) there are times I swear I am too depressed to go on without medication. T and I will talk about it and once or twice she even made me angry because she doesn't think I am depressed. I am responding to treatment and we can get through it. (As I really don't want medication, this is fine with me)

So I wonder if some of these things will feel better, in time. I believe you said to me once, when I wrote about not having much time left and wondering what good therapy could do, that all we can do is be in the time we have now and do what we can. That all we have is now.