(((Silent Tsol)))

As my T puts it, the behavior that was once necessary to protect you and entirely appropriate in that time, isn't working for you anymore. But, it's an engraved behavior in your psyche. It takes time and a lot of practice ~ as well as a healthy behavior to replace it with. That takes patience and work.

As time goes on, you'll probably continue to experience this same scenario. Be mindful that your emotional reaction is normal. The experience should ease with time and practice. Best wishes sent to you!